she looked out with her sad, sad eyes through the thick, black curtain of clumpy hair that hung limply at the sides of her face. they screamed, they begged, they pleaded.

Save me. Save me, Samantha, save me.

But I didn't.

I just met her pitiful gaze with my cold, electric blue eyes. Eyes that were hiding the burning fire of desire to save her. The pity, the guilt, the pain I felt deep down inside.

My heels clicked against the polished white-tiled floor as a turned my back on the steel, barred door, sending echos bouncing on the walls and poking me with accusing fingers and the lying truth.

"You deserved it. Bitch."

I spat out vehemently over my shoulder but was suprised at how much poison it held. I felt a little tug in my heart as she cringed further back into the wall at those words. Just a little bit.

"Samantha..."

Her lips formed the words but nothing came out, all of her emotions were concentrated on the single tear that leaked out of her eye. I continued down the corridor. Jacob was waiting for me.

Click.

It's her fault.

Click.

She brought this onto herself.

Click.

It has nothing to do with me.

Click.

I had reached the stairs at last and stared up at the old oak doors. I climbed up, one black heel in front of the other, tainting the snow-white carpet lined on the wooden boards as I ascended. Each step that I took closed the distance between me and the towering doors slowly, forebodingly. Why did it feel this way?

Clong. Clong. Clong.

A loud, heavy sound resounded with each step I took, with each foot that I raised and brought down on each stair.

It's hollow, I thought, It's oh-so-very hollow.

Clong.

It's just like me.

Clong.

It's just like me without her.

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history yesterday. we're not talking about it, ok? ;x

went shopping with huiqi after the aforementioned thinggy. ;3 313@Somerset. first time there ;x it was FANTASTIC ;D especially the shopping there~ damn nice. damn nice. oh, and the price. awesome. awesome. just too awesome that it burned a ridiculously huge hole in our pockets ;x

loved new look. their heels rock ;3 spotted one pair of gladiator heelssss!! they are so pretty and black and tall ;D (and bad for my knees ;x) i bet that if i stood next to joshy or yuheng i would be about their height or TALLER. HAHA. IN YOUR FACE YUHENGGGG!!! >;D it's 5-inches m'dear. 12cm qiqi got a pair too ;D when she tottered in it, i laughed xD i'm a natural ;D xD

went to forever 21. got a REALLY cute shirt and a pair of denim shorts ;3 i've really wanted them for a long time. ;D walked around for a while more, looped back to new look and bought those heels ;3 really LOVE them xD
calculated how much was spent and i was really suprised that i did not even bat an eyelid about forking out the money. $93.90 kissed my ass goodbye. and i didn't even blink. but being only human, i felt guilty about it >.<

reached home, hugged mommy, kissed mommy, and said sorry to mommy. to tell you the truth, i was close to tears ;x but she forgave me. i felt even worse as a looked at her disappointed face. really, it was like the knife the was already stabbed in my heart dug deeper. but i really loved and did not regret buying the stuff ;x the heels were worth it, but the shirt and shorts were way damn over-priced. but they were so pretty, i could not help it and i was running out of nice stuff to wear. ;x what a sin that i have committed, huh? ;x

ah well. my sis loved my heels but not the height. she tried them on but almost fell and bonked her head on the bed frame xD i could jump in them. as in literally go boing boing xD my sis's mouth dropped wide open xD

she loves photography and said that she wants to open a blog and get a professional camera and shoot some pics and put them up ;3 promised me that i would be her first model xD but let's wait and see if time allows, hm? ;3