There were always those times, there were always those days.

It's been plaguing me lately, I do not know why. It just comes when I'm least expecting it, ironically, just as expected. Just as usual. I do not know why, but it hurts. It hurts real bad. Y'know those kinda feelings where you feel like you're gonna cry but the tears just won't come? Yeah. It's something like that. It just claws at you, eat at you from inside out, that burning, black flame in my chest. It would raise it's ugly black head at people and scream at them, lash out at them with words that slash right deep into their consciousness.

It's just so painful sometimes, that I'm afraid to talk. I'm afraid, that once I open my mouth, the pain would come out and infect them too. It's black. It's diseased. It's horrible. It's painful. But, I guess that it's be over. The question now is, how soon? And would I be able to hold out till then?