I am not asking for anything else more. Damnit.

1. I want you to do well in your studies.
I know that. I know that very well. I want to do well as well. It's not like I'm gonna cuddle-wuddle up in front of some stupidly romantic spot and whisper wishy-washy things into some stupid guy's ear and he, into mine. He's just a friend. They are ALL just friends. Yes. Males. And females too, if I may add. Friends. Some a little closer but friends. Just pure, natural friends that I hang out with, have fun with, joke with, play with, and sometimes study with. Without them I wouldn't be who I am now. Period.

2. I don't want you to get into a relationship so early.
You do not want me to get hurt. Yes I know. You want me to enjoy my life to the fullest while I'm still young. Yes I understand. Really. But which part of "I'M NOT PLANNING TO GET INTO ANY RELATIONSHIPS NOW" can you not understand? Or do you just take note of the "R" word? That's quite unfair, isn't it? I listen to every single word in that sentence. I've had it etched so deeply in my heart that I've turned down so many many many many many outings. Since I was very very very little. Starting from the primary school age. Can't you just trust me?

3. I've seen too much.
I am very well aware of where and when you were raised. How people didn't like others holding hands in public. And all that intimate stuff that I've never done before. Never. You hear me? Never. I understand why you worry. Believe me, even though I rarely read the newspaper, I am constantly surrounded by people that actually talk about the news sometimes. Yeah. They are smart people. All of them. No matter what stream or fuck they come from. Singapore's education system of labeling and degrading these students with other unique talents is crap. It doesn't matter who they are or what they do. The only thing that matters is their inner beauty. You of all people should know that very much better then me.

4. I am not used to what they do in this era.
The only thing I can say is grow up man. Humans are given the necessary tools to adapt well to their surroundings. I know that you came from a very traditional place with their traditional thinkings and stuff like that. But I am not asking permission to hold hands, kiss, hug or get in bed and stuff like that. Please. I value my body. All of these things I have are the one and only, the only one in the world. Why would I give such priceless thing when I myself know that I do not really know how to judge people myself? Sheesh. Again, I am not a kid anymore. I am a teenager. Wait. Even I as a kid knew all of these things. What excuse do I have to say that I do not know that now? Please man. Please.

Perhaps another reason why, though felt more subconsciously than really said out loud, is that you first dated when you were at a very much more older age then me. And you'd struck gold at the first try. Congratulations to that. People expect others, especially parents to their children, to follow their footsteps or/and achieve the dreams that they could never achieve but have always wanted to achieve, as well as not repeat the mistakes that you have made. I know. I understand that. I have younger siblings and I myself have felt that way as one that is older then them. And you should know very well too that with every mistake we make, we grow a little. It has shaped you into who you are right now, an awesome person. I want to explore my life myself. Can't you grant me that simple wish? I don't really mind guidance though.

And I'm sorry. But I am not you. I would never be, can never be, should never be you. I am me, I, myself. I know that it sounds kinda insensitive and selfish but really, it's reality. And I'm sorry that all of us lives in this reality. The only thing that we can do is make compromises and stick to these compromises. Just as we had agreed to them.

I am not going to run away, my tummy swollen with an infant. I am not going be some dropout. I am not going to run home crying about 'how much a jerk he has been'. I am not like that. I know that. And I want you to know that too. Please. Just a little acknowledgement would do. We could work on the trust issue later. So please, please could you just cooperate? Could you please just cooperate? Just this once? TALK TO ME DAMNIT.