I don't mind trying again. I'm just afraid of being hurt for the same reason.

Sometimes, I just wonder if all you've ever done was just to make me feel good. Does it really come from your heart? Other times, I wonder the very same thing about myself. Am I the way I am just to look good in front of others? Am I just a farce? Was all and everything just a facade? Did everything just pass by like some kind of epic play? I hate feeling this way. I hate feeling like I do not know something. And especially when that something is important. I hate feeling unsure. I hate feeling the insecurity. Damn. Fuck this. I'm sorry about the vulgarity. But really, fml. Sometimes. :)